First of all, apologies for the really, REALLY cheesy title. Couldn't quite resist.
Second of all, apologies for the really, REALLY extended radio silence.
Okay, now I've got the humble apologies out of the way, to the blog!
I'm actually not blogging per sa, as it's a blog to say that there is no blog, there will be no more blogs and I'm done with blogging on blogger. At the risk of allowing Facebook to develop an autocratic dominance over my internet usage, I'm amalgamating most of my various social networking onto there.
To that end, updates, Note posts and general outpourings of (questionable) wisdom and (very questionable) ranting will be found there. Anyone who doesn't have me added on facebook, should e-mail me and we'll get that sorted out.
Incidentally, I'm also moving towards facebook chat as opposed to MSN (I know, it really is getting a free pass to cyberspace dominance but hey, it's convenient) so note that I can be found easier on there than MSN.
That is all, my good fellows, so as far as this blog goes, goodnight, and goodluck. :)
Ky xxx
Thursday, 30 July 2009
Friday, 26 June 2009
Quickie ;-)
Okay, lil quick summary blog, just for the hell of it.
First and foremost, if one more person mentions Michael Jackson being dead, they'll be joining him post-haste.
That aside, last weekend was absolutely amazing. Beyond amazing. One of the best nights I've had in a LONG time, even lacking my pet dyke - whom I shall be seeing this weekend, miss her!
My unwelcome occupants clear out for a few weeks as of tomorrow, so let the marathon partying begin. I can hear my liver weeping already. Lmao.
So the me and he thing has changed slightly, definitely for the best, and shall see how it plays out. Do like him a lot, but I'm happy to see how it goes - there's a certain happy freedom in flying solo for a while.
All in all, things remain well, and long may they stay thus! XD
Shalom my darlings <3
Ky xxxx
First and foremost, if one more person mentions Michael Jackson being dead, they'll be joining him post-haste.
That aside, last weekend was absolutely amazing. Beyond amazing. One of the best nights I've had in a LONG time, even lacking my pet dyke - whom I shall be seeing this weekend, miss her!
My unwelcome occupants clear out for a few weeks as of tomorrow, so let the marathon partying begin. I can hear my liver weeping already. Lmao.
So the me and he thing has changed slightly, definitely for the best, and shall see how it plays out. Do like him a lot, but I'm happy to see how it goes - there's a certain happy freedom in flying solo for a while.
All in all, things remain well, and long may they stay thus! XD
Shalom my darlings <3
Ky xxxx
Thursday, 18 June 2009
Black Coffee, Baby
So once again, I apologise for the extended radio silence. I'm terrible with blogging, I know. I should be taken outside and shot.
However, since you're nice people and you're not going to do that because my gun's bigger than yours, I shall hence forth and blog.
Okay, where to begin...
Last weekend, Kev's birthday. Was going spare trying to arrange everything - as ever, weeks of planning disintegrated into screaming matches and fist-fights over sandwiches "Make more gammon!" / "No I wont make more fucking gammon, I LIKE TURKEY! WHERE THE FUCK'S THE CHEESE?!" but eventually, we got there.
SO, having humphed bags equivelant in number and weight to the possessions of a small mexican family into town and eventually into Alan's car, we finally took off and made it to Loch Doon.
Much random drunkness ensued, only bitch being Midges, but hey, it IS Scotland after all. Bottom line, was an amazing weekend. :D
Finally sorted college out, and I'm now continuing this course into next semester - my GPA is much lower than I'm capable of, and I'm not happy with sitting at that, would rather to another 6 months and get it up to 3.5/4. That's dealt with a lot of stress, and ey up, term finishes tomorrow! Dance with me, baby!
Haha. Now, back on the health wagon proper - managed to stick religiously to eating uber healthy (wholemeal crackers, brown rice, tuscan bean, all surprisingly luvverly) and working out for a minimum of an intense hour a day, and feeling incredibly great for it. WAY too easy to dread exercise and forget how much of a buzz it is, but thoroughly glad I'm back to it. Next stage, finishing converting the garage into a gym proper.
On a not unrelated note, sleeping much better, probably to do with the amount of energy burned through the day, and thus drinking a lot less. Been sitting at a consistant two or three glasses a wine at most per night which, as you'll know, is muchos progress.
This however will be getting kicked to the curb this weekend - Kennis has marvelously timed the latest party with the end of term, so piss-up of the extreme variety awaits, and I'm absolutely dying for it, should be a brilliant night.
I -think- that's more or less everything for now... oh, yeah, annoyingly unemployed now that term's more or less ended, so desperately seeking a job. Possibility of working on restoring a boat up north for a fair amount per hour, but of course that's weather-dependant, so not going to rely on that too much. Still, one can hope.
Oh, one or thing, as some will know, I currently have two mobile numbers. I Am Using Both. As such, you can text or call me on either. If I've got the other one in at the time, leave a message, I'll have checked it soon enough.
Righty, that would be me done. Hope all's well with everyone, and love as ever. :D
Ky xxxx
However, since you're nice people and you're not going to do that because my gun's bigger than yours, I shall hence forth and blog.
Okay, where to begin...
Last weekend, Kev's birthday. Was going spare trying to arrange everything - as ever, weeks of planning disintegrated into screaming matches and fist-fights over sandwiches "Make more gammon!" / "No I wont make more fucking gammon, I LIKE TURKEY! WHERE THE FUCK'S THE CHEESE?!" but eventually, we got there.
SO, having humphed bags equivelant in number and weight to the possessions of a small mexican family into town and eventually into Alan's car, we finally took off and made it to Loch Doon.
Much random drunkness ensued, only bitch being Midges, but hey, it IS Scotland after all. Bottom line, was an amazing weekend. :D
Finally sorted college out, and I'm now continuing this course into next semester - my GPA is much lower than I'm capable of, and I'm not happy with sitting at that, would rather to another 6 months and get it up to 3.5/4. That's dealt with a lot of stress, and ey up, term finishes tomorrow! Dance with me, baby!
Haha. Now, back on the health wagon proper - managed to stick religiously to eating uber healthy (wholemeal crackers, brown rice, tuscan bean, all surprisingly luvverly) and working out for a minimum of an intense hour a day, and feeling incredibly great for it. WAY too easy to dread exercise and forget how much of a buzz it is, but thoroughly glad I'm back to it. Next stage, finishing converting the garage into a gym proper.
On a not unrelated note, sleeping much better, probably to do with the amount of energy burned through the day, and thus drinking a lot less. Been sitting at a consistant two or three glasses a wine at most per night which, as you'll know, is muchos progress.
This however will be getting kicked to the curb this weekend - Kennis has marvelously timed the latest party with the end of term, so piss-up of the extreme variety awaits, and I'm absolutely dying for it, should be a brilliant night.
I -think- that's more or less everything for now... oh, yeah, annoyingly unemployed now that term's more or less ended, so desperately seeking a job. Possibility of working on restoring a boat up north for a fair amount per hour, but of course that's weather-dependant, so not going to rely on that too much. Still, one can hope.
Oh, one or thing, as some will know, I currently have two mobile numbers. I Am Using Both. As such, you can text or call me on either. If I've got the other one in at the time, leave a message, I'll have checked it soon enough.
Righty, that would be me done. Hope all's well with everyone, and love as ever. :D
Ky xxxx
Sunday, 7 June 2009
Quote of the Day
Decided to add a daily update to my blog, for when I cbf actually blogging, so I'm going for the easy quote of the day option.
Today's is a bit of imparted wisdom, generally speaking though, they'll probably be humour of some description.
That is all.
Today's is a bit of imparted wisdom, generally speaking though, they'll probably be humour of some description.
That is all.
"The best way to keep a secret? Keep it to yourself. Second best? Tell one other person - if you must. There is no third best."
As We Walk Down This Long Road Called Life...
So, on my ongoing soul-searching and perpective-finding, I've once again been doing some thinking - the dangers of a Sunday morning! Haha.
No, I digress. Thinking of a lot of things both said implicitly, and that've happened of late, I've come to a certain conclusion that I don't actually need anyone in my life except me - but I do want them there. I could viably manage quite well on my own, and should some unexpected turn of events happen, then I'm not going to find myself in a sudden spiral if I don't have anyone to help me through. The point is, though, that while I could manage in isolation or ostracisation, I prefer not to, so here's to great friends and great times together. XD
In other news - my thesis is finally coming together, which is probably a good thing, considering the impending deadline lurking on the horizon. Assorted other pieces of coursework, while some tedious, are at least being blitzed through, so on that front, all is well.
As far as relationships go... well, I'm not saying I'm expecting one to develop, but for once, I don't NOT want it to happen either. I think I may have smoothed the edges of the cynicism a bit, god forbid... apocolypse can't be far off now. Stockpile tinned food and copious alcohol! Batten down the hatches! Shriek hysterically! Flee aimlessly around flapping your hands in the air and for god sake, DO NOT STOP PANICKING AND THINK CLEARLY OR WE'RE ALL DOOMED! - Remember this advice if you ever find yourself in an apocolypse, people. Don't thank me now, being able to smugly say 'Told You So' as we emerge from our little underground bunkers and peer horrified at the desolate wasteland that we will thence call home will be all the thanks I need. :D
I digress again... where was I? Before the whole shrieking and smugness I mean, before that bit. Oh right, yeah. So that's all I have to say about relationships, which is actually more than I meant to say, because I got distracted by the whole impending doom thing, which I suppose is kinda understandable, it's not the sorta thing that's easy to overlook, what with all the dark clouds and fork lightning and sulphuric mists and stuff.
Anyway, for some reason that put me in mind of - and I got a text just there, and lost my train of thought, so I'll probably come back to what it put me in mind of at some point later, probably not in this blog, and more probably at some stupid time like 4 in the morning when I've just got into bed, so it'll remain unposted until such times as I eventually either remember at a good time, start taking pen and paper to bed or snap and run shrieking the end of the thought repeatedly through the towns and cities of this country before being shot down by a SWAT team of Psychiatrists in catsuits. (Can you picture that, incidentally? I can. It's one hell of an image.)
Incidentally, I'm aware I'm digressing a lot, but hey, it's my blog, if you don't like how my mind works, then fuck off. Go on, you miserable bastard. Get off my blog! Go on! Fuck off, PAL!
Still here? Oh good. Well anyway, that's me for the day (I did tell you to fuck off, if you're still reading, you're a bit of a masochist and also, can't say you weren't warned) so seriously - shoo!
Love y'all. :D
Ky xxxx
OH! Before you go - (I can't BELIEVE you're still reading! I already said goodbye! I mean, cmon! Do you honestly have nothing better to do?!) - finally got round to downloading Placebo's new album, and it's quite okay, and by which I mean, it's FUCKING IMMENSE! Go download it, now. Not later. Not tomorrow. Now. Whatever you're doing (well hey, it can't be much, you've been told to fuck off by a blog and you're still reading it) stop doing it and go download the album, and then (this is quite an important bit) - Listen To It. You'll love it. :D
Right, this time I'm gone, so enjoy your day, and enjoy the album, and if you come back tomorrow, you might get another chance be verbally abused by a blog again. Pervert.
No, I digress. Thinking of a lot of things both said implicitly, and that've happened of late, I've come to a certain conclusion that I don't actually need anyone in my life except me - but I do want them there. I could viably manage quite well on my own, and should some unexpected turn of events happen, then I'm not going to find myself in a sudden spiral if I don't have anyone to help me through. The point is, though, that while I could manage in isolation or ostracisation, I prefer not to, so here's to great friends and great times together. XD
In other news - my thesis is finally coming together, which is probably a good thing, considering the impending deadline lurking on the horizon. Assorted other pieces of coursework, while some tedious, are at least being blitzed through, so on that front, all is well.
As far as relationships go... well, I'm not saying I'm expecting one to develop, but for once, I don't NOT want it to happen either. I think I may have smoothed the edges of the cynicism a bit, god forbid... apocolypse can't be far off now. Stockpile tinned food and copious alcohol! Batten down the hatches! Shriek hysterically! Flee aimlessly around flapping your hands in the air and for god sake, DO NOT STOP PANICKING AND THINK CLEARLY OR WE'RE ALL DOOMED! - Remember this advice if you ever find yourself in an apocolypse, people. Don't thank me now, being able to smugly say 'Told You So' as we emerge from our little underground bunkers and peer horrified at the desolate wasteland that we will thence call home will be all the thanks I need. :D
I digress again... where was I? Before the whole shrieking and smugness I mean, before that bit. Oh right, yeah. So that's all I have to say about relationships, which is actually more than I meant to say, because I got distracted by the whole impending doom thing, which I suppose is kinda understandable, it's not the sorta thing that's easy to overlook, what with all the dark clouds and fork lightning and sulphuric mists and stuff.
Anyway, for some reason that put me in mind of - and I got a text just there, and lost my train of thought, so I'll probably come back to what it put me in mind of at some point later, probably not in this blog, and more probably at some stupid time like 4 in the morning when I've just got into bed, so it'll remain unposted until such times as I eventually either remember at a good time, start taking pen and paper to bed or snap and run shrieking the end of the thought repeatedly through the towns and cities of this country before being shot down by a SWAT team of Psychiatrists in catsuits. (Can you picture that, incidentally? I can. It's one hell of an image.)
Incidentally, I'm aware I'm digressing a lot, but hey, it's my blog, if you don't like how my mind works, then fuck off. Go on, you miserable bastard. Get off my blog! Go on! Fuck off, PAL!
Still here? Oh good. Well anyway, that's me for the day (I did tell you to fuck off, if you're still reading, you're a bit of a masochist and also, can't say you weren't warned) so seriously - shoo!
Love y'all. :D
Ky xxxx
OH! Before you go - (I can't BELIEVE you're still reading! I already said goodbye! I mean, cmon! Do you honestly have nothing better to do?!) - finally got round to downloading Placebo's new album, and it's quite okay, and by which I mean, it's FUCKING IMMENSE! Go download it, now. Not later. Not tomorrow. Now. Whatever you're doing (well hey, it can't be much, you've been told to fuck off by a blog and you're still reading it) stop doing it and go download the album, and then (this is quite an important bit) - Listen To It. You'll love it. :D
Right, this time I'm gone, so enjoy your day, and enjoy the album, and if you come back tomorrow, you might get another chance be verbally abused by a blog again. Pervert.
Wednesday, 3 June 2009
Boo, Hiss
I know how emo and self-pitying my last blog was, and for which I am sorry, things aren't anywhere near that bad... just hitting bad points every so often just now where it seems like they are. No prizes for guessing what's causing that.
On the plus side, I'll be all self-pitying for another few days, bore everyone to tears with how much I miss her and all being well, I'll bounce back so.... let me wallow for now. Lol.
Anyhoo, other than that and some m-fo evil sunburn, all is well in the land of Jew, so chins up and backs straight and all that jazz. :)
Ky xxx
On the plus side, I'll be all self-pitying for another few days, bore everyone to tears with how much I miss her and all being well, I'll bounce back so.... let me wallow for now. Lol.
Anyhoo, other than that and some m-fo evil sunburn, all is well in the land of Jew, so chins up and backs straight and all that jazz. :)
Ky xxx
Held Up Well
Don't really have much to say tonight, anyone who's close to me knows the date, and they're pretty much all who matter just now.
"You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be, and I don't want to go home right now...
And sooner or later it's over... I just don't want to miss you tonight.
I don't want the world to see me, 'cos I don't think that they'd understand...
When everything feels like the movies... well you bleed just to know you're alive!"
Sometimes, a song says what you can't put into words.
Bottom line is, I need my friends around me over the next few days, and I hope they'll be there. Never failed me before.
Ky x
"You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be, and I don't want to go home right now...
And sooner or later it's over... I just don't want to miss you tonight.
I don't want the world to see me, 'cos I don't think that they'd understand...
When everything feels like the movies... well you bleed just to know you're alive!"
Sometimes, a song says what you can't put into words.
Bottom line is, I need my friends around me over the next few days, and I hope they'll be there. Never failed me before.
Ky x
Tuesday, 19 May 2009
N.B.
Nothing in my last blog was meant sarcastically, offensively or unpleasantly - I genuinely am just taking time out to get my head and life in order, and deal with a lot of issues that've been on the back-burner for way too long.
As per advice of a lot of friends past and present, I'm finally taking time out, a holiday of sorts, to have some 'me' time that's greatly needed - been trying to be all things to all people, all of the time for way too long. Dangerously close to burning out completely, and tbh, lucky I've realised that now rather than later when I'd have crashed completely.
Anyway, bottom line is this. If anyone hits crisis genuine while I'm taking this 'vacation' type thing, then of course I'll still be here, but other than that, I'm nobody's priest or shrink or go-to guy for the next while - I'm not saying I've ever felt like I was expected to give help all the time, I did and do want to, but I am only human, and having not taken a holiday in years, this is sorta like an overdue retreat to recharge. It's a bout of overdue selfishness that I honestly think will be to my and other people's advantage when the effects pay off.
Day-to-day, I wont be around all that much insofar as I'll be spending time doing things I've wanted to do for a while - read Confucius for a day sipping malt in the garden, or explore my family history proper, maybe casually learn the basics of another language for pleasure instead of working myself stupid at it. Spend a day exploring the less commercial parts of Glasgow, or listen to completely new music, read Orwell and Faulkner for pleasure, go random walks down the beach or elsewhere just to think and take a look at things. As well as that, going to take the time to really work through a lot of past and present issues, catch up with people from the past that I miss, spend time with family... you get the drift.
You're probably thinking this is something that I should be hitting twenty years down the line, and you're right, I've always pushed myself too hard too often. I'm not burning out completely, more recharging.
Anyway, I'll now swing to my point. If I'm distant, or you don't hear from me for a little while at a time, or anything like that, it's nothing to worry about, it's nothing personal, and I'll be back when I'm good and ready. I know some people will look at that and think, well hey, we're just expected to wait? Well, I know those closest to me will understand this, and know how much it's needed, and some indeed reccomended it. Anyone else... well, if I gain nothing else from this, who's still there when I get back will show me who really knows me and who cares.
As per advice of a lot of friends past and present, I'm finally taking time out, a holiday of sorts, to have some 'me' time that's greatly needed - been trying to be all things to all people, all of the time for way too long. Dangerously close to burning out completely, and tbh, lucky I've realised that now rather than later when I'd have crashed completely.
Anyway, bottom line is this. If anyone hits crisis genuine while I'm taking this 'vacation' type thing, then of course I'll still be here, but other than that, I'm nobody's priest or shrink or go-to guy for the next while - I'm not saying I've ever felt like I was expected to give help all the time, I did and do want to, but I am only human, and having not taken a holiday in years, this is sorta like an overdue retreat to recharge. It's a bout of overdue selfishness that I honestly think will be to my and other people's advantage when the effects pay off.
Day-to-day, I wont be around all that much insofar as I'll be spending time doing things I've wanted to do for a while - read Confucius for a day sipping malt in the garden, or explore my family history proper, maybe casually learn the basics of another language for pleasure instead of working myself stupid at it. Spend a day exploring the less commercial parts of Glasgow, or listen to completely new music, read Orwell and Faulkner for pleasure, go random walks down the beach or elsewhere just to think and take a look at things. As well as that, going to take the time to really work through a lot of past and present issues, catch up with people from the past that I miss, spend time with family... you get the drift.
You're probably thinking this is something that I should be hitting twenty years down the line, and you're right, I've always pushed myself too hard too often. I'm not burning out completely, more recharging.
Anyway, I'll now swing to my point. If I'm distant, or you don't hear from me for a little while at a time, or anything like that, it's nothing to worry about, it's nothing personal, and I'll be back when I'm good and ready. I know some people will look at that and think, well hey, we're just expected to wait? Well, I know those closest to me will understand this, and know how much it's needed, and some indeed reccomended it. Anyone else... well, if I gain nothing else from this, who's still there when I get back will show me who really knows me and who cares.
Pause For Thought
Okay, as things are, I've been doing some thinking and I've got a lot more to do, not sure where this will end up at-all.
Anyway, my point being that for the next little or not so little while (as I said, no idea where this will go) I'm taking a step back out of the picture.
I say again I don't know where this is going, so I don't know who or where will hear from me again once I get where I'm going (metaphorically speaking) on this one, think there are some aspects of my life are doing more damage than anything else, and that's been a long time coming - this isn't aimed at or specifically because of any one thing or person, or aspect of my life. It's more a much overdue bit of soul-searching: one can only spend so much of ones life drifting through it without a fairly clear idea of where they are and all.
It's really difficult to explain if you haven't hit that point before and all, but bottom line is, I'm going off grid for maybe not long, maybe a while, and this is to let any and all know what's going on with me for now, and that I'm not dead yet. :-)
Thank you ladies and gentlemen, you've been fantastic.
Ky. xxxx
Anyway, my point being that for the next little or not so little while (as I said, no idea where this will go) I'm taking a step back out of the picture.
I say again I don't know where this is going, so I don't know who or where will hear from me again once I get where I'm going (metaphorically speaking) on this one, think there are some aspects of my life are doing more damage than anything else, and that's been a long time coming - this isn't aimed at or specifically because of any one thing or person, or aspect of my life. It's more a much overdue bit of soul-searching: one can only spend so much of ones life drifting through it without a fairly clear idea of where they are and all.
It's really difficult to explain if you haven't hit that point before and all, but bottom line is, I'm going off grid for maybe not long, maybe a while, and this is to let any and all know what's going on with me for now, and that I'm not dead yet. :-)
Thank you ladies and gentlemen, you've been fantastic.
Ky. xxxx
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